Posts Tagged ‘twins’

In Which I Chop off My Hair

Wednesday, October 17th, 2012

Well, we’re still here at home. Clio’s numbers still weren’t high enough to start her next round of chemo, but we’re going to test again tomorrow and possibly go in on Friday. Or maybe it’ll end up being next week. Who the hell knows! It’s completely beyond our control.

Speaking of things being beyond our control — and attempting to regain some sense of control: Remember back over the summer when I wrote about how I was considering donating my hair for wigs for cancer patients? Partly because it’s a nice thing to do and partly because sometimes big changes in life make you want to change your appearance?

Well, I did it yesterday. Took off just shy of 9 inches to donate to Pantene Beautiful Lengths, which was recommended to me by someone (here, maybe?) as one of the best programs. They also don’t require your hair to be as long, so that was a bonus, too. My hair was getting so freakin’ long I was starting to look like Cathy. (From the comic, that is. Ack!)

I’ve had more or less the same hair for the past, oh, fifteen years, albeit with variances in color and presence of bangs. So I was kind of curious what I’d look like with shorter hair. This was a good excuse.

So, here I am at the salon right before the big chop. I just pulled my hair out of a ponytail (its usual state these days, since it was so long and annoying) and it’s sort of messy and wavy. I also look a little apprehensive, don’t you think?

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Of Side Effects and Kindergarten (and Monkeys)

Saturday, September 29th, 2012

1. Side Effects

Step right up and see her — Miss Clio Moock! The Amazing Side Effect Girl!!

Yes, Clio continues her streak as the kid who gets rare and sometimes mysterious reactions to chemo. This past week at the cclinic she had a reaction to something called Peg-asparaginase. Her face got suddenly very red and a little puffy, and her head and mouth started hurting.

Actually, allergic reactions to asparaginase are not uncommon, but they apparently don’t usually look like what Clio had, or happen as quickly. (Plus there’s the fact that she’s had the drug twice before with no problems.)

Add this to the mysterious Ara-C fevers, the scary seizure-ish episodes, and the surprisingly slow rate of hair loss (bonus!) and that’s our girl! Special in every way.

But damn, is she a trooper. One minute she’s throwing up, an hour later she’s out in the backyard playing with her sister. And she seems to be weathering the disappointment of not starting kindergarten or soccer fairly well. But a few times, recently, we’ve wondered if on some level she’s taking it harder than it seems. (more…)

Talk About Bad Timing

Wednesday, July 18th, 2012

When I found out back in early June that a writer for the Boston Globe wanted to do a profile of me / my new book, I was thrilled. And then when I found out it was going to be a front-page feature in the “G” section of the paper (the lifestyle section, although it always makes me think: G-spot) I was ecstatic. Such fabulous publicity!

But when it came out yesterday, my mood took a nosedive. It felt so irrelevant, so strange, so wrong. Excited and ecstatic were about the last words I’d use to describe how I felt. (It doesn’t help that there are some other issues related to this whole adventure that have been stressing me out over the past couple of days. More on those later, maybe.)

I did the interview with the writer — who was absolutely lovely — a little over a month ago. In fact, it was the day after we took Clio to the pediatrician for the first time, to investigate the several weeks of leg pain and strange, spiking fevers and vague belly aches she’d been having.

At that visit, they drew her blood to test for Lyme disease and rheum factor, and to get a complete blood count. It came back normal — just a slightly elevated white blood cell count, consistent with a virus, and borderline anemia. I was relieved (and felt slightly ridiculous) because I’d actually suspected leukemia.

That feels like another lifetime ago. (more…)

Gut Punch: My Babies are Going to Kindergarten

Tuesday, June 5th, 2012

Photo by Mara Brod

About a month ago, I went — along with the girls — to the kindergarten open house, where we toured the classrooms and said hello to the kindergarten teachers at what will be their school in the Fall. It was a little overwhelming, but not a particularly emotional experience  (even though Clio was clearly a bit spooked by the whole thing.)

Then, two weeks ago, Elsa and Clio had their preschool graduation festivities. Basically the whole school participates in them — there’s a show where each class sings a couple of songs, followed by a little festival — so the girls have been in it twice before. Still, I thought maybe this year I’d get a little weepy or something, it being their final year of preschool.

Last week was their last full week of school. I was on a video shoot all day on their last day, so I didn’t drop them off or pick them up, which I was a little bummed out about; it was strange to think, after the fact, that I’d probably never set foot in the building again. I felt a little wistful, but in an abstract kind of way.

And then, this weekend, it really sank in for the first time.

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That ever-elusive one-on-one time

Wednesday, May 30th, 2012

It seriously is one of the biggest “I wish we could do more of it but how?”s of parenting, whether you’ve got twins or kids of different ages: How do you carve out time to spend with each kid separately, so you can focus fully on them, instead of dividing your attention between them and their sibling(s)? And so they, in turn, get you all to themselves for a bit?

I feel like it’s especially important for twins, who are together so much of the time. At least, in our family it’s been the case. As hard as we try to recognize Elsa and Clio’s very different personalities and foster their individuality, the fact is, they’ve basically been joined at the hip (figuratively speaking, mind you) since they were in utero.

Honestly, the extent of our typical one-on-one time is, basically, I’ll take one with me to the grocery store on Saturday afternoon while Alastair stays home and plays with the other one. Within two hours, we’re all back together again. Woo hoo. Let’s hear it for quality alone time.

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