I took the girls to get haircuts this past Sunday morning.
That “s” on “girls” is a very big deal, as Clio hasn’t had a haircut in over two years — not counting the one where we buzzed off what was left of her rapidly thinning hair six months into her treatment.
She took the whole hair loss thing with such stoicism. I mean, she was self-conscious sometimes for sure, and I don’t think she exactly liked being bald or, later, having very short hair. But it wasn’t something that she was outwardly upset / sad / angry about.
These days, though, she’s very eager to get her hair back to looking the way it did way back when she was a healthy five-year-old: A cute, pin-straight bob. This is what it looked like:
(Worn in this case with particularly goofy expression. I think it’s her “take the damned picture and get me off this bogus Santa’s lap, please” face.)
I’m not sure her hair is even capable of looking like that again at this point; the texture is too different — thin and coarse instead of thick and straight. But there’s some new hair growth coming in now—I can see it along her hairline, soft and straight—and maybe in time the texture will eventually be what it used to be. Or maybe not.
Really, all she needed on Sunday was to have it neatened up a bit, so it wouldn’t look quite as scraggly. The hairdresser — who was very sweet — blow dried it so it actually looked almost bob-ish. She advised me, “when you blow dry her hair, just use a little 1-inch brush like this.” Riiigggghtt….”when” I blow dry her hair…..
Anyway, two days hence, her hair doesn’t look much different now than it did before the cut. But I think it made her happy just to be doing it — to feel like she had hair enough that it merited cutting! That’s worth $13.95, as far as I’m concerned. (As for Elsa — well, Elsa would grow her hair down to her feet given the choice, knots and snarls be damned. So in her case, I paid $13.95 to make her cranky. But it’s worth it to lose those extra two inches of tangle-prone hair.)
There are other ways that we’re seeing glimpses of “the old Clio,” though I hesitate to call it that, since it’s not like the “old” Clio ever went away. She’s been with us all along — growing and changing and being her Clio self.
That said, her face is looking decidedly less swollen, and her pasta belly is gone. She definitely has more energy now, and as a result, we’re seeing more of her crazy silliness. No one believes it, because she’s so reserved and even shy around other people, but the girl is a riot. She makes all of us — and especially Elsa — crack up on a regular basis. She’s got great range as a comedian — from clever wordplay to good old fashioned booty-shaking dances (Elsa’s favorite).
She still doesn’t walk or run as fast as she used to. She still wants to go to bed early. But more and more, she just seems like a regular, healthy kid. Which is awfully nice. (Now excuse me while I go knock furiously on some wood.)
Her haircut is darling, and glad she is feeling so good! She looks much more grown up than the five year-old picture (which makes me sad because my twins will be 5 next month, and I know the days of looking babyish are numbered).
The hair that first grows back in is growing into VERY damaged follicles- mine wouldn’t even absorb water at first. But eventually it grows out and the hair that comes in is a little less coarse- though the thickness/texture/color may be different.
How wonderful to see the facade the chemo painted on falling away a bit – here’s to more and more of the new-old Clio being her amazing self!
knocking on my wood for you too… Glad to hear all of this.. she’s looking great.
Beautiful in every way, jane. When Clio and I met she had the bob. So glad “he’s” back…xo
Many of my ‘straight’ friends were ‘curlies’ after chemo.
That might be an adventure for you!
This made me so happy to read. I am thrilled for all of you that the journey to more normal routines has begun. There is something so special in the mundane after years of chaos. Xoxo
So happy for All of you! Who knew what a “JOY” it would be to celebrate “Normalcy”! When I met you guys, Twins are twice as fun was a just song to me. Now it is a beautiful story, that keeps happily unfolding.
The Moocks will always totally ROCK to me. Carry on. Love, Mrs. Nardone xxoo
So happy for the experience of getting your hair cut for the fun of it. Glad that such a normal experience for others is so special for Clio. She’s a brave and beautiful little girl.
This is so wonderful!
After my treatment plan was over and my hair started growing in, we realized that I had gone from a pin-straight blonde (much like Clio’s) to a CRAZY CURLY dark brunette. And you know what? I love my hair. I love when people see kid pictures of me and go “Are you kidding?! That’s not you!” because it represents the journey I took, the transformation from pre-cancer-Cara to post-cancer-Cara, who knows she can beat anything.
So wonderful to read this post (knocking on wood here too) and this comment as well. We are just at the beginning of our journey as my 5 year old hero was diagnosed in late September. Wishing you all happiness for years to come.
So glad to hear this! She does look more like her old self to me too. She and I have the same haircut right now!
My mom had straight hair before the cancer and even though it did not fall out, it got a lot curlier after the chemo. Crazyness.